Personally - I think that agnosticism is the only logical stance to take - there can be no proof (or disproof) of deities in any meaningful way - so...
Personally speaking, if you're searching yourself for any sign of existence of $deity, then that's normally when you will find the proof you need..
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You've had a bad experience with Catholocism in the past haven't you? I'm Christian, I don't have to eat fish on a Friday, all I do to be a Christian...